I had a dream last night that kyler was born and I got to hold her before she died. I woke up crying. My daughter was beautiful. She looked like an angel in my dreams. I woke up not to a simple cry( if I cry anymore which is rare it’s just a few tears) this was a full out cry. I haven’t cried like that since my uncle killed himself. I was heart broken. I never got to hold my daughter in real life. She was far too small. Maybe she was letting me hold her in my dreams because she knew I always wanted to. For whatever reason I’m glad I got to hold her at least in my dreams. She is always with me and will always be daddy’s little girl. Loosing a child changes you. It changes you into a more caring person. It makes you realize all the things in your life you have been through are small. I will never get the image of her out of my head. I love my baby kyler, I love my angel!
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so today there was a ruling in VA that gave a sperm donor the rights to his child. The lady had asked him to be a donor and they got into a fight and he sued for rights to the child. The judge ruled that because she had used a turkey baster and it was not a medical device that he could see his child. BUT she now has a free baby sitter on the weekends and she can now sue for back child support and child support is not cheap. Up to half of a paycheck can be taken for child support. We used a donor and I am forever grateful and glad that A. We used medical devices. B. We NEVER have to worry about our children being taken or shared. Our donor does not want kids. He is happy to provide but he would rather us have children than him. He has no interest in seeing koda. He made it very clear that if something happens to us he don’t even want to keep him. We have our children for life and that’s the way the ideal donation should be. Koda and his soon to be ( next month) sibling will forever be ours. No worries for us at all. However I know that there are people out there that are not so lucky. I know that some people can’t even get prego and that is sad. We have been blessed with a perfect son and next month we are starting another perfect child! We are truly thankful and humble that we never have to worry about our children and can have as many as we want. We also pray for the people who can’t have children or can’t adopt or have problems with donors.
took little man to our annual strawberry picking. He loved it! Cottle strawberry farm is an awesome place.